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Time and the "NOW"....










We went to see the movie Jumanji 2. It was amazing and Neel really enjoyed it. And then on the way back home, I told him about Jumanji one with Robbin Williams (Oh!! I love him and adore his work so much). I was very keen that Neel should see this movie. And then it was playing on Star Movies -Neel slept off midway while I finished seeing it till the end. And then, I saw again with him. The scene that hit me was when Alan comes back and checks his dad’s factory – he is shocked to see everything change so much!!!
While Neel enjoyed the movie, I was anchored rather transported to the time when I saw it with my dad. It was such a different experience seeing it with my dad and now with my son. The movie is the same, it's just the time that has changed. And then while my eyes stared at the screen in front of me, a different movie started in my brain. How every small passing day has brought about small little changes in the day to day routine and over a period of just a few years, how everything is COMPLETELY different in my life!!!
I had my admin who used to work with me earlier. She joined me back after 7 months. She says things like – “this is how it was done then when I was working with you mam”. And I ponder about how things change in a matter of a just a few months such that the working of the setup changes completely. I did not realize because I was bringing about just small changes every day but she saw that after a few months and you know what- everything is different...
And then again, on a lazy afternoon, Mandar puts a movie called “Castaway”- amazing work by Tom Hanks. In the movie, in just a fraction of a second, his plane crashes and he is stuck on a lonely island. On this island, there is no rush to finish any work which his job required him to do. His main job was to take care of himself such that he keeps “Breathing” and “Living”.
Why am I thinking about all this?
You know I went to the place where I spent my childhood and the place where I lived before....everything around this place has changed and nothing is the same. In fact, I had to search for the location of my house. And do you think all this happened in just a day? No, many small little changes over a period of time...But now everything is completely different...
I am getting convinced that the only thing that I have in my hand is “NOW”. I decide what I do with it and these small little things that I do now change my life COMPLETELY.... It really changes, I am sure you know that...But then what has changed because of this realization??
I ask myself what I want to do with this “NOW”?
Am I painting negativity in my mind or positivity?
Am I appreciating myself?
Am I playing a victim?
Am I asserting myself?
Am I being mindful of this “now” or am I painting it with the worry of the future?
And then a voice keeps coming- what do you want from this moment? So when I am with my son- I tell myself, “I want beautiful memories with this little one”. And then when I am making breakfast, I tell myself “In this now, I want to give my 100% to making this yummy thing that will nourish my family members. And when I am with kids at Khushi- I want to add more hope and improvement to this family and so on and so on.
I am being aware of each moment as I am entering into the "now"- in my house, in the kitchen, in the hall, on the road, at Khushi, at the supermarket... everywhere...
Because these small little changes will change my life completely in a few hours, few days, few months and a few years...
So, I am cherishing and relishing this “now” like an ice-cream, licking it and relishing it...MINDFULLY WITH AWARENESS.....

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